Sunday spin

[rolanni]

Today -- that would be Sunday -- has been very strange and dislocated.

I got up what counts for "late" nowadays, declared to myself that I didn't want to eat breakfast, I didn't want to sit with the sun lamp, life was ashes, and everything a waste of time. Yeah, I know, but Brain Spin doesn't make sense. It just Spins.

I managed to talk myself into a cup of tea with the sun lamp by mentioning that I had to fill in my calendar for next week, so I knew where I needed to be when (next week being a thought difficult), and was thus not a waste of time. So, I got my 30 minutes of light. By then, it was really getting on, but I plea-bargained breakfast by pointing out that, by eating late and large, I could have a small, late lunch.

Hit the office a little after 10 and wrote until 3 (and this is how I wrote a book last year. No Brain Spin while writing.) Then I had my promised snack-called-lunch, changed out the cat fountains, did my duty to the cats and -- that's gonna be it. No, I did not do my PT homework. No, I did not take a walk. Nor did I throw myself off a high building, so I'm calling Life and me even on the day.

The cats have been keeping close; both Rook and Tali tried to figure out how to sit on my lap while I'm typing, but neither could make it work. Firefly, not being a lapsitter, kept watch from On High.

I have, for what its worth, figured out why this rough patch, now. December 5 would have been when we knew for sure that the meds weren't going to work, surgery was not a thing, and the downhill slope was one way.

It's nice to have a mystery cleared up, I guess.

Well. I still have tomorrow clear to write. Hopefully, with less spin.

Everybody have a good evening; stay safe.

I'll check in tomorrow.

Comments

[leecetheartist]

Strength to you. You have written many books that have illuminated my life when I felt dark and you are valued for yourself. I will draw my next inktober in your and Steve's honour. I don't know what the next ink is yet, it will be a surprise, but we know now that the art will feature Tree & Dragon.